My new days....

Today 23 September 2009 now 1:30 a.m...

I will start to my new days diary. So I will try to write this everyday like a myself emotion report .Hope can cure sickness. Today I give myself 50 marks, rarely pass.

Today nothing special , just accompany my parent to buy some stuff for my sister wedding. Its on this coming Saturday. Not really excited , i don't know why, but trough this I saw that my parent really happy and really willing to spend a lot to make make my sister can be proud to marry. And yet I see they really love my sister and I feel a little jealous on her.

I also didn't think much on him today. because is hopeless. Feel excited that my sister need to go karamunsing complex to buy something. I was thinking might meet him , but I didn't meet him. Feel a bit strange with my evening snap, I dream about him. Maybe that call " What u think at day; what u dream at night". Feel myself so stupid to think about him daily. I hope that one day I can speak out all my hates and hurt in front of him, maybe my sickness will cure on that moment.

Well, my new job is gonna start today, need to wake up at 6:45am, but can't really sleep now 1: 48 a.m. and is start raining outside. Hope is a good starting for my life.

Good night myself....and be happy.