Things happened in May 2009

"Time wait for no one" I like this prase very much , kinda meanful to me. Of course, time go by too fast , until I really dont wanna wake up from my dream to face the true. But now is really time to wake up .

Well May for me is quite a happy month . I went to island with friends and we have alot of fun. Meet a new friend which is really alike with me and spend a lot happy & sad moment with him. I'm glad I spend alot great time with Father Lord, He heal my broken heart and I love him so much. Good news is my sister might going to marry in this year and i'm going to be a bride maid again...haha kinda remind me alot of thing in Daniel & Eyvonne's wedding. But i'm guess this time i wanna be a beauty bride maid , not a very " chan kai " one ...hahaha.

Rebuild relationship with Eyvonne, of course ,before we had some misunderstand between . But is really doesn't matter, becuase God let me to learn a very important sessions from this . Things already passed & I already forgive her and Him. I wish they can trust me because i chose to trust them again. I hope everything is fine and dont wish to mess up the relationship we build up very hard. Actually is quite small thing and dont need to complicate the problem. Just like God forgive us and He wont try to remember what we had done wrong. And god also want me to learn to " let go "first ...what i really want in this moment , God always have his own time to make things happen to us.

In this moment , I just hope can resign this job and continue my study. Haha... finally can have my own car but have to look for part time job . Because still need to survive for life...haha have some pocket money while i study. At least now i know what i want or need to do, not like before always confuse. I glad i met this special friend. Hrm ...quite hard to descride the relationship between , more than a friend but not a couple and we both also dont think we will be couple , not kinda possible will happen in the future. People might think we just "ai mei" but actually is totally not that kinda matter. We both been hurt badly before in relationship , so not willing to commit in any relationship first but just need a "伴" to share , to relax , watch movies only. What we want is something very simple. Maybe just a care or an embrace only..only a "Pure friendship".

Maybe people will think why i dont find a female friends to share. Sorry, not i dont want is because they all got married or have boyfriend already. Of course dont have much time for me and also cant understand my feeling at all , cause they all in "honey moon" stage. Once i go out with them , 100% sure they will talk about their problem with their boyfriend. My needs always been ignore. They also like to bring their boyfriend around and 100% sure will have some sweet movement in front of u ...which i can't stand for and also dont wish to see. I'm not hate it but will remind me a lot of sad memory.

With these new friends, we talk and share everythings. Dont need to wearing a mask while hang out , dont need to hide your own true feeling , dont need to afraid will " 嫌弃" each other bad habbits. We always hang out 2 person is because we always talk about very private things , but of course we dont mind join other friends. We both truely know from our we wont become couple...haha weird... He did nice n sweet.. but everything too alike ... i also dont wish to have another "ME" to be my boyfriend..hahaha weird ..we both also wish cant keep this friendship...